Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Am I this?

‘He who has a ‘why’ to live for can bear with almost any ‘how’
                                                                                    - Friedrich Nietzsche

So before we ask why it is important to ask how. Value systems and social ethics prescribe the accepted method. But what if those don’t satisfy your individual quest?  What if at some stage in life, the monotony of it all just renders you incapable of enjoying life beyond an avatar of biological needs and social role player? Chronic meaninglessness, apathy, and aimlessness and an acute awareness of the superficiality of life plague many a lives to a point of no return.
What defines a human being? What is it that makes us unique in this world of over a zillion creatures? I think we are unique because we ask questions. And the biggest and the toughest question we have ever asked is ‘Why have I been born?’ The saddest element of any search is that we forget to enjoy the journey, concentrating hard only on the destination.

We search for the meaning in life and during this search, evolves a story unique to each individual. As life unfolds before us, we discover aspects of ourselves we never thought existed. It is this wonder, about an amazing individual that resides within you, that is the real meaning of life.

‘Am I this?’ takes a look at the different ways in which we look at ourselves in wonder.
  • ·         Firstly, a body that physically feels and responds to stimuli from the environment - a ‘living’ thing in the true sense of the word.
  • ·         Then, a thinking conscience that reacts to the offered stimuli in unusual ways. So different from individual to individual that you wonder is the stimulus offered in the first place was really the same!
  • ·         Thirdly, a wonderfully evolved mechanism that works in a magically complex way - the human body and brain – the wonder machine!
  • ·         And lastly, the insignificance of human life. The human body is just a item in the pathway of energy in the universe.
I am just a minute fragment floating in a gigantic system far, far beyond my comprehension. I should let my universe shrink to a few meters around me. This would give me a better perspective of what life expects from me and what I should expect from life. Continued ripples of change rip and reshape the complex universe that surrounds me, in much the same way as it does the larger universe.

Evolving in this system of a zillion changes is this little life of mine. I am a complex molecule getting more complex by the day. And older and wiser too! What do I have to offer to this universe in flux? Well, nothing much. Just a little more changes, maybe! And a promise to keep the fires of quest burning and the arrows of questions flying in all possible directions !

I! Am I this body
that feels the heat and cold?
that in indignity hackles raise?
that in triumph or defeat sheepishly grins?

I! Am I this dream
that showcased my might?
that took away the bashfulness?
that lets me speak out my true mind?

I! Am I this magic
that makes my body work?
that in impulse and reflex reacts unprompted?
that deduces answers to hundreds of questions I pose?

I! Am I this unknown entity
that is just an insignificant particle?
that is but a living vessel of transient energy?
that transcends the universe to the space beyond?

© Nalini Hebbar/openmind/2009-all rights reserved

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magiceye said...

am i?

Beyond Horizon said...

I liked d line...'sadly we 4get 2 live d journey..n concentrate on destination'...n question put forward in poem..amazin...loved it!

Dr. Pratibha Singh said...

We start a life as a baby ,unaware of his own name and as we grow explore everything except us.The more we try to explore ourselves the more complex it becomes.Who am I?question keep pondering in our minds but remain unanswered.

zephyr said...

The human being is a truly amazing creation and the more we ponder about it, the more discoveries we make, the most significant being that we are but an insignificant atom in God's creation.

anuw said...

Very nice flow.Good article

Anonymous said...

Yes, I am an insignificant particle.Created by god and has to leave when he calls.. You've got a really nice article here..
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Arpana said...

In this all chaos ed world not every one after the quest of finding the truth behind our presence here and intro- probably in search of peace. This write up of yours surprised me.

dr.antony said...

You are all of this!
I loved the song. said...

Those 4 perspectives on life is quite true and thought provoking too. Wonder how significantly insignificant and how insignificantly significant our life is!! Wonderful thoughts madam. Wonder whether you have published your poems.

Nalini Hebbar said...

@ Subu....thanks for the beautiful interpretation...and no my poems have not been time to go after that...maybe when I get really really old!...:)

@Aparna...It surprises me that you are surprised!...can it be possible that one lives thru life never wondering if there were a bigger purpose to ones life?

Thank you Antony, zradar, anuw, zephyr,Pratibha, beyond horizon, and Deepak for enjoying the post.